One Way Or Another -5
Chapter 5 --Mikan’s memory was tampered by the anti-organization before she was saved by the others. Which memory was lost? Will she regain it? Or will she just leave it at that? How far will she go to get it back?
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Mikan stood there and directed the power inside of her to her brain, searching for the chest that needs to be opened. A chest full of memories she badly wanted. She searched thoroughly and realizes that the Alice is also blocking that chest from her. Her brow creased in frustration and anger. While she was thinking of Natsume’s face she activated her powers inside of her.
What she felt was pain. Extraordinary Pain. Pain that one her age should not feel. Once she activated it again for the second time, for a second she was standing and the next she was down on the floor kneeling. She felt pain all over her torso, she felt like there was a hammer banging on her arms bringing her down, she felt a hole on her once filled heart, and that was the worst she felt. It was like she lost someone really special. She remembered the feeling of losing someone special. Her heart feels like dropping to her stomach leaving a big hole on her once said heart.
Suddenly, she can’t breathe, her lungs stopped doing its job. She clutched her throat hoping to be able to take in air as well as out. But that action only made it worse, she felt like she was drowning even though there’s no water. She was drowning and she knew she was going to die.
“This is going to end” she screamed inside her head “this must stop”
It felt like hours but it was just seconds. She falls down on the floor, face-flat, her lungs still not working. Finally, after what seems to be hours but just seconds, her lungs worked again. She gulped air and felt her lungs doing their work again. It was nice to breathe again.
She heard knocks on her door before she finally passed out, her body getting used once again on having oxygen in it.
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“What will we do?” Ruka asked no one in particular
The three of them headed for the elevator on the hospital. They just got out of Mikan’s room.
“Do you think the potion’s ingredients are given on one of the books?” Natsume asked Hotaru
“I’m not sure, but I’ll check it out—“she stopped talking as the whole hospital heard a scream. A scream that has been haunting Natsume’s dreams, it was Mikan’s.
“Was that real or I just had a flashback on Mikan’s kidnapped?” Natsume asked
“Mikan” Hotaru murmured “come on”
The three ran as fast as they can towards Mikan’s room. They tried opening the door but it won’t budge. The other doctors were already there, and a nurse with hoop full of rings kept looking through the rings of hope finding the one key needed. Natsume got tired of waiting the second he saw the ruckus going on. He stepped in front of the door and produces a fire on the door knob, he wanted to burn the door but that might affect Mikan. They don’t even know if she’s near the door or something. Natsume took his cautions.
Once the door was open, doctors and nurses piled in the room. The other three stayed outside, knowing that they’ll just take up spaces. Suddenly, a doctor came out and told them Mikan’s state.
“We found her laying on the floor, a doctor with the Alice of seeing through the body and knowing its past accidents told us that her lungs just stopped working” he informed them
“But she’s okay now, right?” Ruka asked
Natsume desperately hoped that he would say yes, “Surprisingly, the lungs just stopped working for seconds, her brain though is quite a mess, but other than that she’s fine”
“No physical injury or something?” Hotaru asked
“Nope” the doctor replied
“Can we see her?” Ruka asked
The doctor hesitated at first knowing well that they just got out of the room because visiting hours were over, but he thought better of it, “Of course”
The three entered the room while Mikan was being lifted to the bed. They must have searched if she had any broken bones, Ruka thought. When everyone else left the room, Hotaru spoke up.
“She tried to get her memories on her own!” Hotaru hissed angrily
The two were taken aback at how she was acting. They have never seen Hotaru like this; in fact no one has ever seen this side of Hotaru.
“She accidentally stopped her lungs work!”
The two best friends looked at each other not knowing what to do. Their sweat dropped when Hotaru began to pace around the room. Natsume sent Ruka a glare clearly stating that he should do something about it.
“Er…you might want to stop doing that” Ruka started on his guard on any of Hotaru’s unpredictable reaction “Mikan might wake up”
“Good! Then I’ll be able to tell her that what she did is wrong and risky!” she snapped her voice getting louder and louder
“You won’t be able to do that if we get thrown out of her room… its past visiting hours and you’re making too much noise” Natsume reasoned
Hotaru glared at him but he stood his ground, Hotaru sighed and sat on the chair beside Mikan’s bed and glared at the sleeping form on the bed.
Minutes and passed and Mikan began to talk on her sleep. The three often caught the words like, “Sorry” “I didn’t mean too” “Natsume… who?”
The two looked at Natsume who also heard what the brunette just murmured, he’s face was covered by his bangs, his head leaning on the window and his breath fogging the glass.
“I think the two of you should leave” Natsume said
“What about you?” Ruka asked as he hesitate to follow Hotaru out of the room
“I’ll be okay… I’ll see you tomorrow…” he answered giving Ruka a weak smile
“Okay…” Ruka said and headed out the room
Once Natsume and Mikan were left once again inside the four walls, Natsume hold Mikan’s hand, it felt so cold yet so warm. He holds it with both his hands and brought it to his cheek. He can feel it now; he can feel himself near in tears. The last time cried was the time his parents died, (a/n: is that right? I think I’m just making things up… sorry). Even though they never ate dinner together or went out together he always have loved them so dearly. And now, now that Mikan, the one he loves, have forgotten about him he felt once again of losing someone he loves.
The only thing that hurts is your love one forgetting all about you. Dieing and all the other stuff are just pain, physical pain. But this one is emotionally and mentally, and Natsume can’t take it all in now. His shoulders began to shake more and more, soon he was shaking violently his sobs were the only thing heard in the peace of the night.
Natsume didn’t know what made him do it, but he did. He got one flower from the flower vase of Mikan and lit the stem with fire. After a while he pressed the fire away his bare hands. He positioned the recently burned stem on top of his wrist, he pressed it on his wrist and he felt it going warm to hot. Soon he can smell the flesh burning. But he didn’t feel a thing on his wrist, the pain his feeling on his chest, on his heart was too much to feel his own wrist burning up.
“What do you think are you doing?” a voice snapped while a hand snatched the flower from his hands
Natsume looked up at his beloved with red puffy eyes and a tear stained face. Mikan stared at Natsume and felt that this was the first time she saw Natsume cry—ever, even without her memories of him, she knew that this was her first time.
“Are you trying to kill yourself?” she hissed at him looking at his wrist not bearing the pain she saw inside of those ruby eyes of his
“No… I can’t feel it…” Natsume whispered now looking away from the girl sitting in front of him fretting over his burnt wrist
“What do you mean you can’t feel it?”
“Too much pain…” he whispered clutching his chest as if having a heart attack, he closed his eyes forcing himself not to look at girl’s eyes knowing that it will only bring back tears once again.
“Oh my god, are you having a heart attack?” Mikan asked stupidly and worriedly. Natsume had to smile at that, he let out a chuckle but it came out as if he was choking on his air. That send Mikan in panic, she was just about to press the Nurse button when Natsume said.
“I’m only 15, of course I’m not having a heart attack”
“Oh… right, I forgot” Mikan said scratching the back of her head lightly
There was a silence where the two were thinking of what they were doing before they got into that situation.
“So you tried to regain your memories, any luck?” Natsume asked still not looking at her
“Yeah… actually I do remember some things…” Mikan admitted, “when we were I think 10, I gave you that Howalon when you were all alone under the sakura tree and the one when we were stuck on the Haunted house alone”
“OH… that’s good to hear” Natsume said, “but still not worth it!”
“Wh—what?” Mikan stuttered
Natsume was now on his feet pacing in front of Mikan while she follow him around with her eyes. “You could have died! You could have-- have died and no one would have known! No one could have known that you were de—not living anymore! Do you know what would that do to your best friend? Friends? Ruka?” he looked at her still pacing, “me?” he whispered the last part as if it was forbidden but nonetheless Mikan heard it.
Mikan stayed silent, “Lucky you, you didn’t even get the chance to see Hotaru so furious, the one who is always calm and doesn’t give a damn to anyone but herself and money… you didn’t see how mad and furious she was”
Silence
“How did you know I was in trouble?” Mikan asked after a few minutes of silence and Natsume finally settled down on the couch his face buried on his palms
“You screamed” he answered
“I did?”
“You did…”
After that short exchange of words they fell silent and Mikan began to drift to sleep while holding Natsume’s warm hand. Natsume just sat there watching her and soon he drifted to sleep. His head resting on his and Mikan’s hand on the bed.
Soon enough the sun rise up and the two woke up with its shining rays. Natsume quickly leaves the room when Mikan was being checked up by the nurses and doctors. He headed for his room planning to take his morning rituals.
“What you did was wrong, Mikan” the doctor started “you should have alerted one of the doctors or nurses in that matter”
“Why, will you have helped me or even approved of it?” Mikan snapped. She’s really not in the mood for the sermon, she was alone and her hand is missing the warmth from Natsume.
“Probably not,” the doctor admitted, “but we would have told you the side effects if it went wrong”
Mikan glared.
“Using one’s Alice to oneself is forbidden, its side effects are crucial, it can shorten your life span, it can make your classification of Alice shift into another one, it can even make you die within that hour…”
“And why haven’t you told the students about that?”
“Because we have a tracker for those who do that”
“And were you able to track me?”
“No… since you were using too much power within yourself, you were able to nullify the detector of your Alice… but lucky for us you screamed…”
“And if I haven’t willed have I died?”
“If balance properly, your chances of surviving that kind of power is only 45%...”
“And what did you do to make me live?”
“We didn’t do anything, your lungs were able to work again in seconds, you should be thankful for that”
“Yeah thankful for that” she murmured
“Why? Do you not want to live any longer?” the doctor asked curios
Mikan stayed silent not really knowing what the answer to that question is herself. She didn’t answer but instead she flashed the doctor a big smile. Soon the doctor took his leave and Mikan was left alone once again.
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As Natsume headed for his own room, he began to think about the days before Mikan was captured. He lowered his head as he passed the big sakura tree they always sat on after classes. He can’t bear to look at it now, it brings too much pain for him.
“Hey Natsume,” Ruka called from his right side “where’re you going?”
“My room” he answered
“Who’s with Mikan?”
“She’s being scolded by the doctors…” he answered, “I’ll be in my room”
“Okay” Ruka nodded
Natsume soon arrived in front of his room and remembered the time when Mikan got lost heading for her own room and accidentally opened his room while he was half naked on his uniform. The look on her face when she saw him was priceless.
“I’m sorry” she stuttered. She was looking at her feet now and was trying her best not to look at Natsume, which she was failing.
“What are you doing here, pervert?” Natsume asked
“Sorry, I got lost”
“Your room is on the other floor… you really must be in love with me that you dare do that little ‘mistake’ of yours” he teased
That time they were only developing their feelings for each other. It took them months to realize they were in love with each other. Five wasted months for realizing it. They needed all sorts of help from their friends.
During the process of realizing they harbor that kind of feeling, Natsume’s usual glare to others was increasing. Ruka and the others call it the stage of Denial.
“Move out of the way, Ruka” he once said when Ruka tried to tell his best friend his condition
“I will, just listen to me for like 5 seconds” Ruka hurriedly said
“Alright,” Natsume said and lifted his hand and began to count to 5 while Ruka just watched in horror and by the time he organized his mind Natsume was already in 4.
The day Natsume got finished with the stage of Denial. It was the time when everyone saw what happened to made him finish the stage.
“Ruka!” Natsume cried at his running friend
“You’ve got to catch me before I tell you!” his friend Ruka cried back at Natsume who was running after him, fast.
“Well you better speed up if you don’t want me to know your little secret, Ruka!” Natsume teased having fun. But he won’t admit it out loud. Soon they were out on the open were students filled the area. Ruka was now running circles on the park, students were starting to stare and Natsume was gaining on Ruka.
‘Where the hell is she?’ Ruka cried out in his thoughts. Then he spotted a certain brunette who was watching the whole scenario from above. She was on top of a ladder supposedly cleaning the windows of the classroom.
Ruka used his pheromone Alice to call his rabbit (a/n: or is it a bunny? J). The rabbit rested on the ladder, where Ruka told him to. Ruka ran to it and tried his best not to touch the ladder as it will make Mikan fall. But Natsume didn’t know that. Natsume used the ladder as a stopper for him to quickly turn the other direction and follow the blonde. Then a loud ear splitting scream was heard. Natsume heard it and turned to look at the direction it came from. Mikan
The scream was all Natsume can hear. Mikan is in trouble. Mikan is falling.
Natsume ran back to where the ladder is and prepared himself to catch Mikan. He didn’t think there was no other option but in fact there were many other options.
When Mikan landed safely on his waiting arms, what he saw made him skip the other two stages, Anger and Depression, and he instead was now on the stage of Acceptance.
“Thanks” Mikan smiled at Natsume who let go of her when she was able to find her balance
“Hn” Natsume walked out of people’s view. He headed for the forest where he can still see Mikan.
“Mikan” he murmured when he was all alone.
Natsume smiled at the memory and lay on his bed. Seeing Mikan’s face on his ceiling, he remembered the feeling to have Mkan’s body on his arms, her eyes shinning in fright because of the fall and the smile she gave him after the save.
Natsume stood up after a very quick nap and did his morning routines. He looked at the clock and saw that his only 30 minutes has gone by since he left Mikan’s room.
He decided to head back to Mikan’s room and on the way there he met up with Hotaru with Ruka chasing after her. Hotaru stopped on her tracks when she saw Natsume. She approached him slowly and gave him a small T.V. She pressed the red button on top and the movie began to play.
“Watch carefully” Hotaru said as she stationed herself behind him
It was Mikan and him inside their room. He was staring at her sleeping form until he began to sleep himself.
“How did you get this?” Natsume asked
“I put up cameras all over her room” she answered “we wouldn’t want her try stupid things again would we?”
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TBCREVIEW PLS. Sorry for the very long update… I was super busy at school… sorry,,,, now that it’s summer. I’ll be finishing this… : D
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